{They Only See Happiness, Not The Tears That I Have Cried}

I am sorry guys for this long absence, I have been really careless and insecure with this blog work as I couldn't pay attention towards it. The different weddings and holidays came in my way, by still, I could carve out some time to write and blog, but anyways... it's alright, I accept my mistake.

I have been really stressed out and never ever looked back that how much I have done yet, but I look forward instead that how much I have to go. This feeling never held my hand through all of these years, but I have been heart broken, used, back-stabbed, with me knowing all this, the people ne'er kept from these.

Life played rules with me along with keeping me busy in other surroundings and things and kept me tangled in the wires of life so that I won't have time to separate myself out of them and then how would I care about the others and their habits? I think that was fair in a way, and unfair too. Fair for that it never made me feel those things that really don't mean anything in the world of goodness and justice, unfair for what that it really did was that it held me in it's problems while I was trying to look back and tears rolled down my eyes.

I wish if this life would end up one day with happiness, anti-problem and solved much. And I wouldn't go crazy in this problem-life frenzy. The people haven't seen my tears that often roll down while I am tensed, instead they note the smile that appears on my mouth and they say it beautifies me. Sometimes I feel that people see the smiling face and they compliment! Just about yesterday, my aunt was saying that while I was preparing something for my dad, her words melted me 'aap aik bohat achi beti ho, sabse achi' and that made me blush, but sometimes when I feel that it's not the right time - and I am also not perfect - I shall not do this - but I am doing it anyway - that's wrong - somehow that would be my mistake and blah blah blah. But! I wish if people would understand these tears that burst out and become and ocean, not even the smile would shine, but it would be worth better when they think, at least they would, and I wish that more than anything else. I wish this problematic life would end one day, someday.

{It's still, and lovely}

The weather is changing and I am feeling quite uncomfortable to walk to the computer room from the blanket and post on, colder breezes (quite unusual) and windy days are following and the viral diseases like influenza and other are giving a profound effect of our health, hope you all are safe.

Along with the breezes, I have my project portfolios running together too :s Gawd it's so annoying for us and for the teachers irrelevant to the subject of which the portfolio is, of course! I am distracted and too confused an irritated by the portfolio and the most important thing which is the cherry on the top that is we have two portfolios running together! and I am feeling so stressed out so I just thought to kinda post on!

Well, life running together with two fastest things, the weather is also fast and indeed we are too, but this heart, it's always the same. It is constant, unchangeable, like I have met many people in life, some of them are still inside it some are thrown out, but still! It's never changing! I believe on the power of one's heart to control one self without devastating him. The most convenient issue that has been proved in front of us (maybe only me) that is, our hearts are the most stupid thing whole in our body, it would work day and night and make us stressed out while we are swinging between the choice of it and our brain. It is never known to the art of cleverness or maybe we are the one who never introduced it to become one.

I hope you liked the above text and I hope that it may reflect your life as well :)

Thanks for stopping by!

{Because This Heart Speaks}

Hey Darls, hope you all are doing good I have been messed up since a few days because of my upcoming exams and that is such a hassle, you can guess. I am informing this to you because I wan't you to cool down because maybe I pause on my blogging stuff.

Adding another picture just because our tensions and suppression don't inform us before attacking, but just adding a picture to make you realize that this heart, my heart... speaks, it complaints that why is this happening around? even it's in my body but it does.

Thanks for stopping by!

;{Bokehlicios}

Hola! 
Sharing one of the bokehlicious pictures that I captured a couple of days ago;

Hope you are going to like them as because I always have loved bokeh so I wan't you to understand that hehehe =)

There we go...

                                                                                                                                                                                       

Thanks for having a look...

I hope you liked it... =] If you are having some more ideas, then let me know okay :)

;{Naj}

POTD: Bokehlicious {If Only You Knew}

{If only you knew}

Another POTD! OMG, I love it! Hope that the bokeh will inspire you too! 

This is a fab! I am in love with the bokeh, and that's not an intended picture I tell you! I was trying to focus something, and it turned out to be like this...
           
My my! I had no idea that how on Earth this clicked! and I had no idea that the pic I was trying to click will give me this outcome! well, I am really happy because I love bokeh! 
          
 I hope that too, you may like the picture, and give me a feedback! 

Anyways, thanks for having a look! 


; {Naj}